Fall Space

I'm in a space
Where color changes are few
Feelings left out of sync with other places

Where I know the future holds changes
That are bold and bright or dull and nondescript
But of my making

The oranges of the autumn burn of time left behind
But they also whisper of renewal and promise
To shed, and grow anew, and this time in a new direction

Embrace the early dusk, it is but a season
Let it share it's breathe with you through crispness it crackles
Embrace it's sharpness and draw in the kindling

Build it, stock it
And light it's fire. Feed it generously.
With brightness ride it's flame to the next season forward

It is warmth, it is light, it is you
When we can move from leaf dropped to new tomorrow
We can fly, and float in the wind ... For there really is no fall

It's Not that I don't hear

It's not that I don't hear the words...

Before, I never believed in them
So I never knew their depth
How they'd reach down inside
Tie roots to my soul

It's that you did
You said them
And now you don't

The words that took me so long to believe, to believe in
The ones that you were the only one to say, ever
And now you don't

And they're nowhere now
May be like me
May be they were never, never were

Behind,
The veil of tears
That no longer fall
I defy
Those who's mission
It is to stab through my strength
I will NOT let you!
I am strong.
And even if it makes me unreachable,
Closed and hard
I will no longer bend
To those who wish me weak
or to fail
Not today, not for you, not ever!

Days Away

Days away

From pen to page

I shelved the work

That feeds my soul

Keeps me alive

To answer those

Who call my name

With unending tasks

And trials

To fill their needs

To ease their fears

But now on life support

I limp back

To infuse myself

With words

Once again

So I can carry on...

I hope that one day

I won't need to come and go

Or put aside my words

But let them grow 

As I stand stronger

Sustaining, maintaining

My connection

With my soul

I hold my breathe
And dare not
Break the spell
You cast
Holding
Onto your promise
Of moments
To take my breathe away

Hold Me

Hold Me
Fold me inside your arms
Near your heart
Let me bury my head
I relax.
As my breathing fals in time with yours
I grow still,
Drift away,
And dream.

When I Find

When I find
That things I used to run to
Were only better than
The nightmares I was running away from
and are now
Not sufficient to cradle my dreams
I am left with both fear and freedom
For unknown possibilities