Permission to Thaw

I wanted your permission to thaw, after years of being
numbed by endless cold stare and icy words.

With eyes toward the sun that I saw as your spirit
I gave you the power to warm my soul
But never fully ran without your encouragement
At least not out of earshot

The universe gave me you as a guide
When I sought to be vulnerable.
But spirit has a funny way of hiding the truth
Until we find it ourself

For you could only warm me from outside
And the fire I needed to thaw had to burn from within
Fueled by finally opening to my deepest fears
Truths, I’d been unable and unwilling to face
Truths that finally gave me permission to thaw